Random Thoughts.......

I am not sad......, neither i am happy......
I am not an Introvert......., neither i am an extrovert.......
/*There is no ambivert acc to me - its a wrong word in English Dict :P...... */
I am not Intelligent....., neither i am dumb.......
I am not an altruist......, neither i am an egoist......
I am not the most Beautiful......., neither i am the ugliest......

Then........, What am i? .......

This Question Haunts me many a times......., for all my efforts to arrive at an answer have been in vain...... :)
In gen ppl say...... "I am What I am" ........ But i have always wondered "Do ppl exactly know what they are?"........ enigma!!!

Now that we r talking about the Question "What am i ?"......, a funny thing strikes my mind......, In gen first interview question is like or slightest variant of the question "Tell me about ur selves"......., and ans is obviously a super cooked bull shit :P....... Interviewer (poor thing :D) isnt dumb either n is actually tired of listening to (or) devouring the same :P "bull shit" :P cooked by diff ppl, in diff words for years :P........, i have always wondered how tough is interviewing ppl than getting interviewed :P......... But by intuition n my gut (which is really strong) says that the Interviewer never cares abt an ans to this question becoz he never understands the answer/ answers :P.......

Today's Fortune (courtesy orkut) : "Sell your ideas - they are totally acceptable" ....... ha ha ha....., so i am selling my Random Thoughts....., for they r also ma ideas :P.......

P.S: I warn u the hazards of trying to understand the above parts of this post for its random, incomplete and incompetent in all its ramifications......, inspite of the sermon if u feel u can understand it (or) ur trying to understand it then ur either god (or) ur on a wild-goose-chase respectively :P.......

Fact:

I get Random Thoughts only when i am lonely, bored, idle or sad.......,
I get Random Thoughts only when i Introspect (or) Retrospect a lot.......,

Thinking Brain -> Centre of Excellence -> Constructive Ideas ........
Idle Brain -> Devils work shop -> Destructive Ideas.....

When i am lonely, bored, idle, sad (or) when i am specting in intro or retro ......... i start posting on my blog :)......, Writing makes me think -> Writing gives me Great Ideas -> Writing makes me happy........, Thus i relish the Joy of feeling that " I am on the Right Side of the Business - Construction (of Blog)" :)......... and i rejoice the fact that "I am not Idle" :).......

P.S: This post is an indigestible chunk......., i do know that Fact :P........ Hint: Try reading between the lines - There iz a lot in it :).........

Its all abt Loving H*O*M*E......

Then: Get up at 10:00 or 11:00 A.M n say........, Moom / Daad i am hungry......, whats the Tiffin :)......., (Ans: Idli)....., Nooooo I hate idli....., I want poori from hotel...... ( N i get a Poori to eat :).......

Now: Get up at 10:00 or 11:00 A.M...., huh i am Hungry....., what to eat?...., Bread n Jam, kellogs or nothing......., okie i will eat Bread n Jam (which i hate more than idli)..........

Then: Amma....., curry isnt like the same one u cooked last week........, why did u cook like this....., i liked previous one better......, cook like that only........ (Ans: I cooked same way both times......, anyways u will know when u cook... :P)

Now: what am i going to cook today......, okie chole...., cooking!!!....., crap why is chole tasting like daal in mashed potatoes....... :P....... ( I wish It tasted like Moms one.....) But never did my cullinary skills go atleast near the lower limit of ma moms ones........

Then: Dady i want 300 bucks......., i am going to party with friends in eye-max/ PVR/ Gokul/ Tipsy Topsy....... (Dad: why?...., okie i wil give only 100Rs......), Mom i want 300 Rs...... (Mom: Okie dear....., i know u got 100Rs from dad......, okie 100Rs more....)......, 200 bucks - u cant get loads of fun with it in Hyd..........

Now: Movie......, 14$ + Tax :P......., Cab (22$ + Tip)/5....., chips soda 5$..............., in total 25$......, not equating to Rs......, but now i know what it takes to earn that money....... (Loads of fun is a lil out of scope to me in US as i dont go to pubs....., n at this point in time i cant afford the luxury of watching every telugu n hindi movie in theatre........ Mera Bharat Mahaan, sow me ninyanave........ like me follow......)

Then: "LIFE" Go to colg- have Fun......, go to SAC-Play Carroms....., or go to DJ-Read Novels........, go to parking - Chit Chat....., go to cafeteria/ friends - have food......, go to home -Watching TV, Chatting, Eating n Sleeping........

Now: "LIFE" Go to Colg - Attend Classes, do assignments, quizzes......., go to work - "kick ur ass off"........, go to lib - "try to study"...., go to home - try to cook, clean, study......., " Only Dreaming of SRC/ Rec...., happened to visit it exactly thrice in the entire semester"...., "chit chat - what is it?"......, M.U - Really Missing it..... not for food but for the ambience........

P.S:.........., the list Goes on......, I know i can write a 20 pager n ma bad mood right now will pucca add to the misery....... So, with an intent to put a break to ma as yet unrestrained flow of thoughts n get back to reality, i am going to end my blog on a final note.........., Its all abt "Loving H*O*M*E".......... having had a great home n great life back in India........ I can say Home n India Rock!!!....., par kuch pana hai tho kuch khona bhi padtha hai........., MS karna hai tho apnom se bichadna bhi padtha hai......... :)

What a Life............. !!!

Deserted Room........., Nice buk...., Coke Can......, Swiss Roll......, n Mascot Mints........ !!!

Full Moon....., Star Studded Sky......, Cool Breeze........., Brisk walk........, n Snickers bite...... !!!

Sunday - Cinemas 10......., Happy Days......, Sweet Memories......, Pop Corn Bucket......, n Soda........ !!!

Dry Desert......., Palm Trees......, Sun Set Spreading as Red Carpet......, Feast to eyes....., n Lays (no one can eat jus one) ....... !!!

Veg Noodles....., Veg Manchuria......., Sweety restaurant........, Pep to ride........., hoi soi n hrisha to share....... !!!

Placid Pacific........, Handsom guy......, Gorgeous Gal (Me :P)........, Cool waves touching Ur legs........, Sweet words touching Ur heart........, n Pani Puri...... :D....... !!!

Hrisha Jokes......, Dads Cribbs......, Moms Emotions......., Peeping Toms (Neighbours :P)........, Ghar Ka Khana....... !!!

Shivam Road....., Friends Bakery......., SAC......, Internet Lab......., Parking Lot......, CS Dept........, n Cafeteria..... !!!

Route 11......., 8:20 A.M......, Pranks on shashi......, Chopping by Sai........, Dairy Milk Vs Polo......, Dinner in Brindavan........ !!!

P.S: All these Sweet Nothings make Smthing in Life......., Make Us Happy...., Make Us Sad......, Make Us Nostalgic......., Make Us Juvenile......., Make Us Laugh......, Make Us Cry........, But Still........ "What a Life............. !!!" ( N I am a Food Buff :) )

Living Life Queen Size..........

........ Tring tring tring..... alaram at 10:00 A.M. - Snooze.....;
........ Tring tring tring..... alaram at 10:10 A.M. - Dismiss.....;
.......(Dint even bother to listen to 10:20 A.M - Alarm :P)......;
........ Tring tring tring..... alaram at 10:30 A.M. - Switch off Mobile (For it has Tooo Many Wake Up Call Options) .....;

Got up n time 3:30 P.M. - Huh DOS or SD.....;
SD or DOS.....;
Oh no.... DOS...., Partha....;
(RUN :D - where :P - Rest Room)...., Brush + Shower......, Sun Screen (For AZ* is Sunny with UV*) + Spray + Comb + Studds/ Hangings.....;

Attack_Kitchen....., no Rice :P......., no Curry (Ob)....., okie Bread Jam....... Bingo....., Brunch (Breakfast + Lunch)......;

4:20 - Bus On Univ Drive to go on time to class at 4:40........, 4:18 n still at home......., 4 mins WALK or 3 mins RUN from home to bus stop........, US Buses n Traffic Signals Suck Man :D (they r disgustingly punctual and restricted)...., i stand at signal to cross road for bus stop n Bus Passes by me like a passing cloud on a desert (ya perfect panorama for AZ)......., me full dead......, walk to BY :( ......, no way....., again as usual "wait for next Bus" cursing my ******* ......;

Next bus only at 4:40 - 13 Mins of Bus Journey+ Walk to BY......., Late to class by jus 15 mins....., peeping through the lens of DOS Class Door to see whats happening in the class (N Wondering if they were waiting for Queen Elizabeth - "thats me" to walk in)......., Creek - huh door sound - slowly walking in to the class to find nearest empty seat...... ( Inorder to avoid any more embarrassing looks or ogles at me...... huh).......;

Sm how i feel i work hard to understand Parthas class n hez too gud man........, One of the best Profs who taught in my life......., Kinda enjoy the class........;

6:00 P.M. Done with class....., Chit Chat with Buddies......, n hottest topics of Discussion are :

"done with assignment";
"howz ur exam";
"RA mila kya" ;
"hwoz the profs research" ;
"is it gud or bad....., does he have funds" ;
"this univ sucks man...... - no funding" ;

"ppl in all other univs r enjoying man...." ("every" next person in "every" other univ is thinking the same way........ i am damm sure )....... :D ;

then .......... Back home or Lib* or CC* or Rec*......, depending on requirement n time n interest respectively...... :)...... ;

(Same thing Repeats Day in Day out......, u never know how to set it to perfection n 2 years of Masters Slip off........) -> Life Goes On -> Any way either GUD or BAD we live it -> n It goes on n on -> so CRUX is RELISHING every moment we live -> Thus "LOVE TO LIVE n LIVE TO LOVE" -> .....n its all abt "Living Life Queen Size......." n ya thats ma way :) :D :P.......... ;

PS: I dint call this Blog "Living Life King Size..........", becoz kings neither use sprays nor wear hanging nor run slow...... right :D :P :)...., ";" at the end of every line on purpose.......;

Masti Ki Patshala........

Four Years of Engineering at UCE, OU......, n when i look back they jus look like 4 days....., kinda.....
3 days before in year - 1......
2 days before in year - 2......
1 day before in year - 3......
n today in final/year - 4......
n me awaiting grand finale April 7th 2007, my last working day at UCE, OU..... n offical Farewell to Final Year studds from College of Engineering, Osmania University......

N now thats its all gonna end........ i feel its the right time for me to retrospecitvely introspect myself........, n understand learnings i will have to carry forward ............. n learn to live without OU n F*R*I*E*N*D*S........ which is very tought for me.........., becoz iam a lil/very emotional abt the thought that iam going to leave my alma mater n pals in jus few days from now...... n i feel penning down (:D typing down) valuble thoughts can aleviate my emotional tornado n help me ameliorate my emotional aplomb.........

Note: Phrase "i still rem" is used like a cliche from next paragraph....., but on purpose :)

i still rem the first day at OU n NEO....., i still rem running away seeing laxmi (my senior) at Gokul for the fear of she ragging....., i still rem party to seniors at Papa-ji-dhaba...., i still rem i n my 5 DSNR friends sitting in 7 seater auto n eating lolipop :)......, i still rem my Freshers party, disco n gift i got for :D........n......... i still rem me complelty screwing my acads in 2nd year........, i still rem working for Software Freedom Day (Kishore event :D) n its absoloute fuss........, i still rem 2nd year class room n that nice wall beside it to sit during breaks........, i still rem me running away from Venkat Dass n Ram Kumar sirs classes for the fear of getting less attendance ( its a correct sentence...., if i run away i will get more attendance :D)......, i still rem getting tensed to work hard for GRE n Placement (anyways nerver did i work that hard.... but its a diff story n i dont want to get in to that....)....., i still rem awating TCS results in AV Lab till 8 in the night n going back home without results ( again i got in TCS but dont want to get there either)....., i still rem writing GRE 2 times ( u can guess why)........ n never to forget my Farewell Parties ( both farewells....)......, i still rem babbling smthing out of nothing in the Parking Lot n Cafeteria :) ...... nnnn..... list it goes on n on n onnnnnnnnnn........

But I love all those 4 years which were so amazing becoz of allllll my Engg classmate n my colg -> my dept :)...., i strongly feel whether i keep in touch with my Engg. colg friends or not......., i will never ever forget them......, they have been (Already a lil more nostalgic) n will continue to be part of unforgettable and memorable relics of my life for ever n ever n ever.........

PS: This is dedicated to all my Engg. F*R*I*E*N*D*S ......, i used "Star/ Asterix" on purpose, it means - ur all stars in my LIFE :).......... though very distant from me..... very very near to my heart :)

N one of the Best Dept n Colg in the world.......... (its not a double-entendre)

Lotz of Love - Sowmya :)

Sorority.... My Baby Sis......

It was first time (as i rem), i went to visit my grand parents in Hyd....., i was 4 years old....., hrisha saw me, mom n dad entering "Prasanthi Nilayam" (my grandpa's Dream House)........., went running to grandma n said...... "Grandmaaaaaa......, Minni n her parents came to our house......", thats the first time from my relics i relish seeing my ever sizzling pal......, yes shez !!! Sorority.... n My baby sis - hrisha............ Shez 2 years younger to me........, n zany state-of-art of our living the then was......... neither she knew me nor did i know her......, i was with mom n dad out of Hyd...... n shez with grand parents in Hyd........

N then me, mom n dad shifted to Hyd....., so, hrisha started staying with us........, shez very intelligent but very very stubborn...... :-), always had an upper hand on me........, we both grew up n...... time passed away like zephyr......, there iz alot of change in me n also in my sis........, this stubborn gal has grown up in to a very sensible and graceful lady :-)....., she understands me better than any one else........ n with whome i can share any thing under the sun n form centre of core (earth/ heart) :D........ n she reciprocated the best possible way to shape our elusive n intangiable (to others.... :D) yet an amazing relationship i have ever had in my life......... a relation that started with two people being aliens to each other...... n then in to one where we two feel extremely alienated without each others company.........

Fraternity, Sorority, Maternity or for that instance Love in its platonic form iz releshing refreshing n rejuvenating....., my sis n her selfless sorority........., iz the one i would love to live with ....., n i would live to love it....., for now n for ever n ever n ever.......... Love u sis :-)......

PS: Its no fiction or all True......... is all dedicated to the most Amazing babes in my life......, My Sis.... :-)......

Kool Kajal.........

I am K(C)ool Buddy....., Kajal......, KSU ......, K(C)riminal psycology is the course iam attending at the university........, K(C)offee is my fav beverage........, kkkkk :-) ......, k - u got it......

24th Mar 2007......., on my way to school....., i saw a stranger....., stranger not as such, met him many a times, went out for a K(C)offee n much more......, but never thought would see him again nor on the roads of kansas......, yes hez Karan........, back in time my K- factor n my life......, but not anymore....., nothing left except for relics........

But the very sight of Karan iz stirring........, all my emotions n thoughts from deep down in heart which were desperatley covered by layers of other thoughts were suddenly erroded by the sight of the (my) guy........., they delved back to my graduation days at KDC in Mumbai.........., it was all browsing n K(C)hatting buzz in colg.........., it was the first time after i got my mail id i logged in messenger........, never knew how to use it......, so my friend karishma was helping me out........, i went to chat rooms......, selected School & Education and went to The University Years........, may people started pinging me......, but i never responded........, then came an interesting msg from an interesting id k_rocksindia......, started chatting with him....., told all the possible white lies to avoid much information abt me as karishma was warning me........, talked to him for abt 1 hour n then added him to a very small list of my friends on the messenger n then left the chat....., never chatted with the guy after that for 2 months...., so one fine day i deleted his id from my messenger......, then story should have ended i feel......, but it didnot........

I got a cable net at home......, one day i logged in available mode ( usually i was invisible)........, again k_rocksindia pinged me........, firstly i wasnt sure if i will have to ans him or not......, but then ans him and it wenttttt onnnn...... )|( kajal.... a voice from distance...., the voice, broke my as yet unrestrained flow of thoughts......, out of musings in to the real world........ it took me a split sec to recover....., it was kate (my friend at KSU)...... running towards me....., then i suddenly remembered i am on the road of kansas n where iz Karan?.............. looked around in vain to find smone like karan........., they were all illusions from my disillusioned heart......, i said "hey kate, how ru doing"......... n Life goes onnnn...........

PS: We Live Once, We Die Once n We Love Once........ n Love Lingers in our heart forever n ever n ever...... :-)

:D This story is all fiction :-(.........., It bears no relation to me or ppl around me........